Please say you won't ever let go of me..

yung projects namin dumadami grabehaaaan.
heheheeeee :)
nextime ko na nga kwento yan. NIGHT!!

DAMMIT.

Sabi mo sakin nung isang araw wag kong sabihin yang DAMMIT, baka mamiss mo ko..
DAMMIT
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(teka hinga lang ako..)
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ano namimiss mo na ba ko? :/
miss na miss mo na ba ko nyan??
kung mas mamimiss mo ko pag sinabi ko yan ade,

DAMMIT
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sasabihin ko magdamag yan.
para mamiss mo din ako..
</////////////3

baka naman sabihin nyo obsessed na ko dun ah? haha pwe, hindi no. mahal ko lang. eh pagbigyan nyo na ko dito lang naman bawi ko ng ka-dramahan e. ansakitsakit kasi eh? wala na kong magawa :(
hindi ko na kasi talaga alam gagawin ko.

promise mag a-out na talaga ko at matututulog,
gdnight >:||||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 

Para lalo akong masaktan..

http://www.secret-loves.com
ayan.. kalokohan yang site na yan nabanggit ko dati diba. Ilalagay mo yung top 3 na love mo then ica-calculate "daw" nila kung sino yung pinakamahal mo talaga..


kitams? :(
pero dati yan hahahaha.
DATI. DAMMIT. :(
MATUTUTLOG NA KO.

IT'S OVER AND I'M FVCKING OUT,
BITCH

Wala na :( Wala na talaga ;((
tangina naman kasi eh
tangina talaga!@#@#$#%^&^*&!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ANO KA NGAYON?
IIYAK KA NANAMAN????
MAY MAGAGAWA BA YANG IYAK MO?
WALA!!!!!!!
hindi ko na alam gagawin ko parang sasabog na yung puso ko sa sakit ;( (athena?)
hanggang tingin ka na lang tngnaaaaaaa. :((((
sinayang mo lahat! dahil jan sa katangahan mo na naman!!!!
ano na yung sinasabi mo ngayon? kahit tanginang konting pag asa wala na
may sarmiento na sya o ano ka ngayon? BITCH!!!!
MAHAL MO PERO DI MO SINABI,
O NGAYON MASASABI MO PA BA???
WALA NA!!!!!
FVCKYOV!
I-BLOG MO MAN NG I-BLOG YUNG FEELINGS MO PARA SA KANYA HINID NYA MALALAMAN YAN!!!!!!!!!
B*TCH KA!!!
MASAYA KA NA?
:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((





UY, WALA NA BA TALAGA?
MAHAL MO BA SYA?
SORRY NA. MAHAL KITA. :(((

 

 ALOHOMORA!

Pronunciation: al-lo-ha-MOR-ah (Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone) or aluh-huh-MORA (video games)

Description: Used to open and unlock doors. It is not effective on doors bewitched to resist this spell. The spell can also unseal doors upon which the Colloportus spell has been cast.

Seen/Mentioned: Used by Hermione Granger in 1991 on the forbidden Third Floor Corridor door at Hogwarts, and, in the Prisoner of Azkaban book, to unlock Sirius's cell in Azkaban. Also used in Pottermore.

Etymology: Alohomora is derived from the West African Sidiki dialect used in geomancy meaning: Friendly to thieves as stated by J.K. Rowling in testimony during the WB and JKR vs. RDR Books. ^[1]

Notes: In the books, when Alohomora is used, the lock/door must be tapped three times

 

(source: Harry Potter Wiki)

How my day went

The usual, I laugh all the way. Natutuwa din ako sa mga kagroup ko sa networking. Mabait sila sakin. Hindi gentleman lagi, di naman masama, sakto lang. Grabe yung Networking 2.75 ako. Whatta loser. pero ang daming 5 sa midterm grade, sure naman bibigyan ng cosideration yun ni maam. lahat kami todo effort kaya sa subject nya. tsss. nako. ayoko pa sana ng grade na 3 sa classcard pero kung yun na yung pinaka mataas sige pede na. :P pero I'm trying harder yknow!! Ayos nga to preoccupied ako sa mga schoolworks eh, para hindi masyadong nagssink-in sakin mga katangahan ko. Wait till summer comes. haha. :|


OVER AND OUT,
NICSY

Wala na yatang pag-asa eh. :|||||||||||||||
28 NA NGAYON.
SAYANG!
SAYANG!
:(
  

RANDOM FACT:

Kulelat ako sa SPORTS. Specifically, 

BADMINTON.

-_-"

 

I happened to notice one thing:

Lumalabas writing skills ko kapag masama tama ko hahaha. Well, not really writing skills pero swear iba talaga yung burst ng words kapag broken-prublemado-eklavu ako.

Sent: 25-Feb-2012 08:32:52am from you-know-who.

Wala kang kasalanan. Talagang ganun naman diba pag nagmahal dapat handa ka sa pedeng mangyare masama man o maganda kalalabasan. Eto mejo masama kinalabasan pero yun nga. Kaya dapat yung mga bilin ko sundin mo ha sana mas sumaya ka pa :) you deserve to be happy. Salamat sa lahat lahat naging masaya ko ata wala akong pinagsisihan na nakilala kita :) kahit ilang bese ako naghintay okay lang yun atleast alam ko nabigyan mo ko ng chance at nagspend ka ng time para sakin. We can still be friends nu sadyang mahihiya lang ako sa'yo pero papansinin pa din kita nu. Ingaaaat. MAHAL KITA. Goodbye.


Eh shit lang tameme talaga ko dun eh. Mahal din kita <3
Funny thing sinabi ko sa kanyang miss ko na sya,
magkita daw kami sabi ko wag na. (looool)
Kinagabihan ka-chat ko pa, kaasaran.
Nubeeeeeeeeeeeh. Ang labo namin no? HAHAHA.

Tutulog na ko. Gumawa kami ng project kanina, parang wala namang natapos. >:D
Kalokohan eh? Ayun napagod ako.
Sana naman magising ako ng maaga tomoro. Puhleaaaaz.
magrereview pa ko konti for the quiz.
K. NUFF SAID.

Hello Neverland -.-

You have a message..

Sorry ha. Sorry nasaktan kita. Sorry sa lahat, basta di ka galit sakin at okay ka, ok na din ako dun. Sana alam mong di ko ginustong masaktan kita. Di mo lang alam kung gaano ko nasasaktan twing nasasaktan kita. naiintindihan ko na kung bakit ang dami mong bilin tsaka kung anu anu pa. Sorry slow ako e ngayon ko lang nagets lahat. So I guess this is goodbye? cornynaman kung sabihin kong let's stay friends. Obvious namang hindi. di mo naman na ko papansinin. Bahala na. Sana di ka galit.

My text message for him.

I'll send this later..

I should sleep for now.

Adios!

Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy

"Goodbye my almost lover, goodbye my hopeless dreams

I'm trying not to think about you. why can't you just let me be? So long my luckless romance, my back has turned on you. Should've known you'd bring me heartache. Almost lovers always do."

Almost lover nanaman ang drama ko, pangalawang beses na to. I let love slip away from me again. Ako naman talaga yung prublema eh. simula pa lang ako na talaga yung prublema..

I got all my hopes up na maayos kung anu man yung mga nagawa kong mali dati, na konti na lang may tao na ulit na anjan para sakin no matter what. Na may matatawag na kong my better half. Isip pa ko ng isip kung pano ko mkakabawi after all the stupid things I've done to you. alam mo ba gusto ko pa sanang 8 yung maging monthsary natin para ∞ infinity sya pag horizontal. o kaya 28, para "to ∞. to infinity" yung meaning nya.. tapos gusto ko maaalala mo ko lagi kapag di tayo magkasama. mgddoodle ako sa books mo tapos mgagalit ka ng konti kasi baka mapagalitan ka ng prof mo pero mata-touch ka syempre. Tapos sabi mo sakin dati diba gusto mong maipakilala ko sa mga kaibigan at barkada mo bilang girlfriend mo. Sabi ko tototohanin natin yun. Hindi na ko maiilang sa'yo. Sasagutin ko na mga tawag mo, rereplyan kita ng mas mabilis kesa sa iba. Sisiguraduhin ko din na masulit yung tatlong oras mong paghihintay na matapos klase namin. Naiimagine ko nga din na may couple shirt tayo eh. yung hindi corny. hahaha. tapos pag vacant natin parehas magkikita tayo sa school. Masaya ka, masaya ako, masaya tayo ng magkasama. Babawi ako sa'yo kasi maraming beses na kitang nasaktan dahil manhid ako. Oo may pagkukulang ka din, pero sige ako nang bahal dun sa iba. Tulungan naman diba. All this time ikaw yung nanjan para sakin pero anung ginawa ko? palagi kitag tinataboy palayo. Stupid me.

Ang sarap isipin no? Kaso dahil duwag ako wala na. Malabo pa sa mata mo yung possibility na magkatotoo yan. Hindi mo man sabihin sakin directly, alam kong napagod ka nang kahihintay at pag-intindi sakin. Sabi mo sakin sumuko ka na diba? Okay lang. Hindi ako galit sayo. Galit ako sa sarili ko. eto nanaman eh? Kung kelang wala na tsaka ako nagkakaganito. 

Mali ba yung ginawa ko? Oo.

:( hindi ko rin alam kung bakit ako ganito eh. Tanginaaa. Mentras minamahal ko ba talagang lalong mawawala sakin? Ba't ganun? Ano na gagawin ko ngayon? :((

Hindi ko pwedeng sabihin sa'yo agad-agad na mahal kita. Konti na lang, in less than a month manlang sana eh. Kaya ko na siguro nun. Gusto ko unti-untiin na lahat na magkatotoo yang mga sinabi ko the moment I said Iloveyou..

Pero, mahal mo pa ba ko?

:(

 Worse, Have you found somebody else?

Ano nang gagawin ko ngayon. :( Magmumukmok na lang ako? I can't fight back. At alam kong ngayon we're like total strangers again. Kasi sabi mo naiilang ka nang lumapit sakin..

Bigla kang humindi the night before na mag-uusap dapat tayo. dammit. Excited ako alam mo ba yun? Sunday pa lang iniisip ko na yung damit na susuot ko for wednesday eh mag-uusap lang naman tayo. Monday and Tuesday came, halos mabali na ulo ko kaka lingon sa paligid. Nagbabakasakaling makita ka. Umuwi ako ng super excited that Tuesday night, Sabi ko pa nga sa mommy ko medyo gagabihin ako kasi may "project". Nagkataon namang Ash Wednesday pala kinabukasan. I thought of asking you na magsimba just like last year. Kaso dahil nga 6pm pa dismissal namin sabi mo nextime na lang, kasi magsisimba ka. Nag-cut ako ng class that wednesday. 4-6. May quiz pa nga eh, pero nagbabaka-sakali kasi ako na wala kang kasamang magsimba tas ayain mo ko. Kaso hindi eh. Sobrang lungkot ko nun alam mo ba yon? noon mo pa lang nagawa sakin yung ganun. Pero hindi ako galit, nasasaktan lang. Kahit naman daanan mo pa ko ng may ka-holding hands ka di ako magagalit sa'yo eh. Masasaktan lang ako ng sobra. Dahil alam kong kasalanan ko din kung bakit ko nakita yun.

Gagawin mo ba yun?

:(

Makikita ba kitang masaya kasama ng iba?

 I'll be happy for you if ever you'd find someone who'll appreciate your worth more than what I have. But I won't be happy for myself. No I can't.

May kasama kang magsimba that Ash Wednesday kaya humindi ka sakin. Nakita ka pa nga ng mga kaklase ko diba? Sabi mo yan sakin eh. Sabi mo sakin naiilang ka nang lumapit sakin. Totoo ba yun? O talagang ayaw mo na kong makita? Edi behind my back iisipin nila kawawa ako? o angsama mo dahil may kasama kang iba? Sige maawa na sila sakin pero wag sana nilang isiping kasalanan mo kung bakit may kasama kang iba.Kasalanan ko yun. :(

Ang sakit malaman. Pero atleast sa'yo ko mismo nalaman. Kung gusto mo sya okay lang. Wag ka lang nyang sasaktan. :(

Sorry kung hindi kita ipaglalaban. :( hindi kita pedeng bawiin dahil hindi ka naman naging akin.

Can I love you from afar? 

- Athena, She's dating the gangster

 

Siguro tulad ng sports, hindi talaga siguro para sakin ang love. Para ding sports, pagod na nga, talunan pa. Hindi ko alam kung ano nang gagawin ko after this. And if all else fails..

I'll just love you from afar.. :(

 

ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTPWXYZ, OOPS. I MISSED U. :|

              That feeling I got when I re-read our old conversations. Goood. You're the sweetest. Your Iloveyouusssssssssssssss are endless. And there I was, the stout bitch. I took you for granted. Never realized how you've been there for me and loved me despite the fact that I ignored almost all your efforts The pink stuffed toy you gave me? I wanna just grab and hug it all day long. I've been looking around the campus, my head's turning fourhundredfiftydegrees, (see? it exceeded threehundredsixty!) with the hope of seeing you. I used to see you at every corner of it you know. And now it seemed walls were all around. hey, I MISS YOU. :(( I MISS EVERY SINGLE PIECE OF YOU!  I guess we never truly realize a person's worth 'til they're gone. Well I do hope you guys don't do such. 

             Sorry I'm such a coward-ass. :(( I don't want you to know that I miss you so much. I can't. I think I should let myself miss you more (fvck!), so I won't ever do stupid things again that would hurt you. :(( I'm sorry I never let you love me. I'm sorry I'm so afraid of  loving again. I'm sorry I thought love would screw up again. I'm sorry I stopped believing in happy endings.

              I wanna fix this mess I made. I wanna see myself laughing with you, finding my hands into yours. I want long walks with you. I wanna make you feel all the love I screwed, I wannawannawannawanna be with you..

              I just hope you still wanted the same.

It wasn't easy to move on and just forget

  It was my first try of moving on with my life and forget about my past relationship with my boyfriend for two years. I told myself I moved on after a day or two that I broke up with him. I felt free. I told myself that would be the last time that I'll be crying because of him. Each day I open my eyes without having the feeling I'm someone that is worthless. I rarely think of him. And so I was convinced I truly moved on and that I'm completely over him.

  For every break up I think, there will always be one who'll try to fix things up. One who'll try to say s/he's sorry and can we just start all over again blah blah. But he didn't even try to win me back. I still have on my phone his text message that says "Tnx.Ingat". That was what he replied to my text telling him I'm sorry and please take good care of himself after I gave him "the break-up letter" Yea I broke up with him through a letter, 'Cause I don't have enough guts to tell him goodbye. 'cause I know I'll end up crying the moment I'll be saying I wanna end our relationship. See? He really just used me.

Days, weeks passed. I heard he's okay. We don't see/text/call each other. Through facebook and some friends, I still was updated with what is up with him. He courted several girls I think. I wasn't shocked 'cause he already did the same back when we're still together. All my suspicions was each proved to be true. That he's saying i love you to other girls, flirting with his so called "bestfriend" and certain things. I'm happy he's happy and those things doesn't bother me anymore.

Then he texted me once admitting he wasn't really happy we ended up like this. And that he still love me. I just laughed and think bullshit. Did he really think I was that dumb to believe him AGAIN? He didn't just stop with one message. Everyday I get the same text message from him saying how sorry he was. My phone got tired of ringing because of his calls. And my friends told me he was asking help from them so he can have me back.At times I was touched, but most of the time annoyed. At the back of my mind I'm thinking he deserve to be ignored.


He got tired chasing me. At first I was happy. I told them he finally gave up. Yea I don't want him back but I want him as a friend. I realized I spent the three years of my life with him, so why not have him longer? I got used to discussing things to him, arguing with stuffs and bothering him almost all of the time. I kinda miss him when times come that I feel alone, or feeling so dumb, pettish, & other sort of childish stuffs. He used to be my instant pick-uper. I miss him. So bad. I never thought it'll be this hard. To just move forward and leave every single piece of yesterday behind. At times I long for his big bear hugs, at times I curse him for hurting me this much.

I'm over him. But I'm not yet over US.

(This blog post I think was way back from 2011, I saw it then decided to continue the last paragraph and finally publish it)